“You ended your calling?”

“I know, but I could not allow myself to keep falling. What about how I feel –“

“Feel? That was never apart of the deal. Anything real was never about the thrill.”

“Why do you only pander when I am all out of answers? When I am wrapped in guilt and filled with anger?”

“Why do you only pick-up when your life is in danger? Why won’t you kneel when I bring you joy wrapped in being fulfilled? I never knew a thanks until you are able to pay your bills or when you feel you are unable to heal. Remember who you are talking to here. I am the one who knows what pumps you with fear. I know your dreams and also what brings you nightmares. I am the one who keeps your head high in moments of wanting to die. I see you try, I have held you when you have cried, why do you think you sway from side to side? I watch you ignore the ones who have only ever tried. Now you say I do not comply?! I know why you stare at the moon, the sun, and the skies. I have sent you men and all you do is push them to their demise. The light you seek will never come when your favorite thing to wear is defeat. I know why you will not eat and why your favorite treats do not make you feel complete. We do this every week and each time I give you stronger feet. Please, I gave you Soulee and you still feel incomplete. You are my toughest, but also very weak. Now tell me, is the problem you or me?”